Wednesday, August 29, 2012


If you haven't seen the new update on Ryan, please read the link to the facebook update:  HERE.

Have you ever seen the wooden marble maze game?  It is a wooden box with a curvy lined trail that a marble has to follow.  It is controlled by two dials on either side that make the wooden board rotate and swivel so the marble will, (hopefully,) go the direction you want it to.  The big catch is there are holes throughout the entire game board that the marble can fall through...If you fall through, your marble is taken back to the very beginning...

Hello...the story of my life wrapped up in a wooden puzzle analogy bow.

That marble and I are kindred spirits.

We begin in the starting spot every time with optimism and hope that THIS will be the time we make it to the finish line.  We begin our journey at a good clip, confident that we are agile enough to avoid the pitfalls of despair, when low and behold...KUNK. 

Start over.

It happens so suddenly that every time it is a surprise.  We are fine.  We are laughing.  We are normaling.  And then KUNK.  We aren't ok anymore.  We are in the dark boweled abyss of the wooden box trying to find our way back to the starting line.

It's frustrating.  <------- That is the nicest way possible to explain my feelings right now.

Ryan's body is currently failing him.  He has no strength...he can barely walk.  It is scary and frustrating and one of those things that could stay the same or get entirely worse.  The unknown...THE sucking the life out of any sanity I may possess.

In two weeks everything has changed.  What will happen in another two weeks? 

(Insert unearthly scream of frustration here.)

I try not to go there.  I beg Ryan not to go there.  We need to concentrate on today.  And today Ryan received his first infusion of the drug that we are counting on to save his life.  We got him there.  He received the med.  He is home in bed.


Win!  Marble maze from hell...take that!

Now I will concentrate on Sunday when all my friends and family will unite in prayer in Ryan's behalf.  I hope that you will join us.  (In fact, you don't have to wait until Sunday.  Ryan could use those prayers today.)

What can the power of prayer do? 

Considering who is at the receiving end of the prayerful pleas...I imagine it can do anything.

Actually, I'm counting on it.

Until then I will pick my marble up and put it back to the starting point...again.  Over and over and over until we make it through this joke of a maze we have been dealt. 

Life can KUNK me all it wants.  I'll start over. 

It is exhausting.  <---- Being kind again...but we will find our way. 

Your prayers will help.


  1. My family and I will be fasting and praying right along with you on Sunday, and we'll be praying the day before and after. Hugs, Love, and Prayers.

  2. Every time you cross my mind, I send up a prayer. Sunday will be a special day that I set aside to pray for your entire family. I known Who's on the receiving end of my prayers. I'm glad it's Him.

  3. Meri. You are one hell-uv-a marble. Praying. Praying. Praying. Please tell Ryan and the boys that The Maher's are thinking and praying for you all. I update Dave about you everday. We are all by your side...not just me, but my family and friends.

  4. Along with ceaseless prayer, I hope to be able to provide a softer 'kunk' when the marble falls. Know your fellow T1D families want nothing more than to make that landing comfortable and the fall-distance short. All of the positive thoughts and offers of assistance in the world will not detour that marble from the hole, (as only God knows the direction and course of our path) but we can and will support you and your family in lifting you back up into the maze. Keep on rolling, honey . . . you are not alone, even if the walls block your view. Love you, MMmmmeeeeerrrrriiiiii

  5. Treasure each day's win and let God deal with tomorrow. Standing with you in prayer every time I think of you and your sweet family. Wish I could do more, but it's what I can do, so that's what I'm doing!! HUGS!

  6. You, Ryan and all the boys are always in our prayers. Every day.

  7. Just said a prayer...

  8. I'm sending prayers, and thinking of your family a lot. I believe the Lord is right there with you and knows your faith.

  9. always in my thoughts and prayers, sending the message along to my friends and family, too ((HUGS))

  10. We are praying for your family daily.

  11. Praying for all of you. Praying this drug will do it's stuff to help Ryan.

  12. Your optimism (<--even if forced) never ceases to astound me. Getting to the finish-line is a slow and frustrating process that requires a tremendous amount of patience. But it can be done. I'm praying that, hand-in-hand, Ryan and you can make it there... together. I believe you are each other's inspiration to keep on trying.

  13. Praying, crossing fingers, chanting... Working this Sunday and will ask my coworkers to pray as well. So many people are praying and hoping for you; God hears our prayers, that much I believe. I hope God knows Ryan is needed here on earth more than in heaven.

  14. Saying a prayer for Ryan and your family.

  15. Prayers for your family. You are always in my thoughts! Praying for a miracle...

  16. Praying for you guys! <3

    My brother had one of those labyrinth toys - so annoying!


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