Tuesday, June 5, 2012

And it goes on and on and on...

I could tell you a little story about a blood sugar catastrophe and end my blog with a lesson learned...

But the story wouldn't be over.

I could tell you a story about a set change gone wrong and then end the post with a pithy saying... 

But the story wouldn't be over.

I could tell you how I bolused before I realized the site was kinked...instead of after...

But that isn't the whole story.

Because something always happens next.

The story goes on and on and on.

I could tell you about a crazy vacation when we used ten times the usual blood sugar strips, and saw ten times the usual lows.

And you would see I fixed the problem.  And you might even think that was the end of the story...

But seriously...that doesn't even begin to explain it.

There is always a next.

There is always something to write about.  Something to say.  Something to celebrate.  Something to lament.

Our Diabetic Life is just that.  Our LIFE.  Life goes on.  Diabetes goes on.

No matter how well things are going, or how bad things are going, there is always a P.S. at the bottom of my letter.

There is always more.

There is never a tidy end to any of it.

Last week L's pump battery died in stopped traffic an hour away from home.

Luckily I had a spare battery in a emergency pack in the glove box.

End of story?

Not even close.

It's the story that never ends.  It goes on and on my friends.  Some people started reading it not know what it was...and they'll continue reading it forever just because...It is the story that never ends.  It goes on and on my friends.  Some people started reading it not knowing what it was...and they'll continue...

You get the picture.

One would think that when the kids go to bed at night, we get the opportunity to start a new story the next morning. 

Not the case.

Diabetes lives on during the night.  The blood sugar hamster wheel spins on into the wee hours of the night into the wee hours of the morning...just to continue to the next day and the next.

It is exhausting.

It is The Neverending story on steroids.

It is the heartbeat of our family.  You can't hear heartbeats.  Stand in front of someone you love...you can't hear it.  You can't see it.  But it is important...and it is always there.  In our life, it takes effort to keep those hearts beating.  Every minute of every day we work to keep those hearts pumping.

Type 1 Diabetes is always there.

Hearts must always beat.  Insulin must always drip.  It is that important.

That is pretty much all I have to write now...

I will get up from this computer in a moment and continue living our story.

Of course, I'll be back and give you a glimpse into our life...but it will just be a snapshot of the daily marathon we run.

The full story continues into our reality.

Always...on and on.

.  <---------- That period should mark the end of this post.

But really, it's not the end of anything other than my words.

The post may end, but my day is just beginning.

.  <---------- But not really.

There is never a period with diabetes.

Just ellipses.


That is our diabetic life.


on and on for always.


Until a cure.  When there is a cure, then there will be a period.

So, until then...


  1. the never-ending-ness makes me feel like I am losing my mind sometimes. Have to share that while reading this post I couldn't help but hear the song "Life Goes On....oh-blah-dee-oh-blah-dah....la la la la la life goes on..." in my head. UGH

  2. ..........defines my life indeed! You know we both love to blog with 'em.............. :) .....

  3. 3am post Meri... I am there with you. I almost didn't cry this time...LOVE

  4. This post reminds me of when I first stumbled upon your blog a few months ago. I read the most recent blog...then the one before and the one before...and so on an so forth until I had read about a year worth of your life as one big story in the course of about a week of my life. It goes on and on and on.

  5. Oh, yes...on and on and on and on...
    So glad I have amazing women like you living it with me!!

  6. love the song at the end, that is such an upbeat measure to such a long-term commitment, no doom and gloom, just the facts ma'am, just the facts. I just wanted you to know, once again, that I am ever so thankful for you and your family. I know we haven't met IRL but I feel like we have, I am thankful for your posts, your moments of availability on the phone or FB, you are incredible and to think you do it all with 4 boys, a dog and incredible husband...hope the rest of your week is smooth sailing :)

  7. So.PERFECTLY.expressed. I try to convey this to family and friends. It is always there. Always.

  8. What a great post, Meri! So very true - it never ends, life goes on. Makes me remember that song from that one TV show Life Goes On, with the dog sitting there waiting for food with a bowl in the mouth... that's so diabetes, always there, waiting and wanting to be fed. Anyhow, before I digress too much - thanks for writing this!

  9. This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

  10. Yes, yes, yes. I'd like to say something more profound, but you've said it already. It's the "ellipses" that makes diabetes so hard sometimes. It just doesn't stop.


Moderation now enabled, so comments will not immediately be seen.