Monday, January 9, 2012


I'm real people sick.

My husband is out of town today and I am on my own. So as I get ready to bring the boys to school I am VERY careful to have them all prepared diabetes wise so I don't have to bring my ashen white face and shaky aching body out of the house again.

I have to bring them to school. But I'll be darned if I'll go back to those schools today because of a simple oversight on my part.

I'm not sure what their supply boxes look like at school, so I carefully pack their backpacks to replenish them.

Just in case.

I give all three boys two extra vials of test strips.

I give all three boys apple juices for lows.

I pack all three boys cell phones and made sure every one of them was charged.

I checked all three pumps to make sure they were full of insulin and had battery life.

I checked all three pumps to make sure they all gave themselves breakfast insulin.

I check that the meter in J's backpack still has a viable battery after sitting unused for two weeks.

I double check all backpacks to make sure they put their lunches inside.

I covered it all.

Zipped them all to school, practically threw them out of the car, came home and as I walked in caught in the corner of my eye a place in the living room where the sun was hitting the couch...the perfect remedy for my chills. I grabbed a warm blanket, staggered into the living room and winced at the sight of myself in the entry mirror. Pathetic. Not pretty. That is all I have to say about that.

"Thank goodness I don't have to leave the house again until 2:00." I say to myself. "Diabetes won't be messing with me today!" Actually, that was thought up sans the exclamation mark. There was no energy left to be perky. I didn't sleep at all the night before.

As I laid down I was grateful despite myself. I thought how the boys feel nauseous from ketones and endure so much, I thought how I have acquaintances on chemotherapy who feel nauseous for days, weeks, months. I thought I won't be sick forever and that is a blessing.

And then I slept. In the warm glow of the morning sun, content and satisfied until the littles called me with their snack time numbers at 10:05.

B: 121

L: 127

My head aches and my throat feels like I swallowed a parade float, but I can rest! Joyful day!

And as I lay my head back down on my pillow, my phone says, "DING!"

That "DING!" is a text.

I reluctantly, slowly, pick up the phone and there in black and white is a text from my oldest son...who does not have diabetes:

"Hey I forgot my sax. Help please!"

Sometimes I forget I'm a mom, not just a pseudo pancreas.


Actually today, it's more like...



  1. Sorry you are sick... If I could I would come right over and take care of you! Get better SOON!

  2. Sorry you are sick... If I could I would come right over and take care of you! Get better SOON!

  3. Oh no Meri. I'm so sorry that you are sick. But look at how you rock the pancreating even when you are not at your best. Feel better soon. (and just so you know, I purposefully refrained from using any exclamation points today.)

  4. Feel better and stay away from the boys. :)

  5. I hope you feel better! My mom used to bring me stuff to school as well. Brought back some memories :) You are so awesome! D mom and just mom!

  6. What a great Mom!
    Feel better soon!

  7. Hope you feel better soon. Poor Mom.... hope you got your rest after bringing back the sax. With four boys, three with D, relaxation must be a rare event. Not fun when you add sickness on top of that. You are a great Mom; the boys are lucky to have you.

  8. Feel better soon, sweet Meri! I forget that I'm a mom, too. Just another side effect of life with D!

  9. hope you are feeling better soon!

  10. Oh, Meri. I hope you feel better soon. I wish I could help you out! Did you take the sax? I don't know what I'd do! You have to take care of you so you can take care of them after 2!

  11. ((hugs)) Feel better soon...until then remember you are also a person who counts, not just a mama or a psuedo pancreas, but somebody who needs to be taken care of, too :)

  12. ugh. (but L plays sax too!)

    i was real people sick last week and then i gave it to the rest of the fam. not fun at all. hang in there. <3

    and happy new year!

  13. I'm behind on blog reading, but I hope you're feeling better by now!

  14. You are so right on with what the morning/day is like taking care of multiple Type 1s. Thank you for your writing. I just started a blog myself - more about our soon-to-have diabetic alert dog. My blog is . Thanks!


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