"Please?" He asks.
"umhum," I hum almost inaudibly.
He has been doing most of the nighttime checks lately and I've been encouraging him to wake me to help out.
I would do them...I just don't wake up for the alarm anymore. Alarm fatigue. I suppose, after so many years my body decided it wasn't going to put up with it anymore. My husband sets the alarm to a local music station and has it turned ALL the way up. The music BLARES, like scare the crap out of you blares, and I don't even budge.
Hence the nudging.
I skirted out of bed catching myself from buckling under my exhaustedness and made my way slowly to the blood sugar station with my arms slightly lifted and my hands flat to the ground for balance. I got the meter ready, grabbed a vial of strips and headed into the boys room...
"Why am I walking with one eye closed?" I think to myself, "you won't be blinded if you open the other one, Meri."
So I do, and my eyes adjust.
The soft beam of light filters into the boys' room and allows me just enough illumination to find B's finger and poke.
82.
"Crap."
As I move a couple feet to my right to make sure I'm reading the meter correctly I see B out the corner of my eye turn his pump light on.
"Oh great, I woke him...poor guy is probably seeing what time it is."
And then he mumbles something to himself and I see more clearly what is happening...
HE IS BOLUSING.
SLEEP BOLUSING???
What the what???!!!!
He was entering a blood sugar number and was at 327 by the time I stopped him.
I sat on the edge of his bed panicking on the inside and slowly, calmly rubbing his hair on the outside.
My mind raced. What if? What if I didn't catch it.
I waited a good 5 minutes to make sure he was back in a deep sleep and slipped his pump back into his Spibelt and zipped it tight.
L: 198
J: 157
I return to B's bedside to give him some juice and then watch him for awhile. He was so still...so peaceful. Will he try again? Should I lock his pump? No. No, he will be ok. I pat myself on the back for making the decision not to crawl into bed with him and make my way back to my room.
More often than not with this disease we have to take that leap of faith that everything is just going to be ok.
Regardless though, you gotta give diabetes props...it can throw a mean curveball.
WOAH! now that is a sure fire way to make you wake up and have a panic attack! My heart is racing just reading about it! So glad you were in the room and saw him sleep bolusing. HUGS to you and I hope the rest of your night went well.
ReplyDeleteACK! Hold up! NO SLEEP BOLUSING ALLOWED!!!!
ReplyDeleteThank goodness you caught it.
Whew.
Angels abound!!!!
OMG OMG OMG!!! SCARY!!!! SO glad you were there to catch him!!!
ReplyDeleteWere you able to go back to sleep? I think that would have kept me up.
oh my...our endo told me a while back that it's pretty common, that freaked the crud out of me and now we have decided to sleep with him until forever. Okay, maybe not...but something must be done ;) Glad he's fine and all ended up well, scary scary moment indeed!
ReplyDeleteWell that scared the shit right outta me! You are right Meri. I am finding more and more curve balls as Joe ages. I am going with them as gracefully as possible...following your lead. xo
ReplyDeleteOK, now I have nightmares about sleep bolusing. Damn diabetes never lets us rest! This is a new one. You always find a way out of it Meri, you always do. Glad all was well.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that everything turned out ok!
ReplyDeleteOh Meri, readng your post made my heart race. What a blessing that you were there! So frightening!!!
ReplyDeleteOh my! I don't know that I would have been able to go back to sleep. Oh, Meri! I wish I lived closer and could take your boys for a couple nights so you could get some rest. Unfortunately, I'm right there with you on the extreme sleep deprivation. Sleep is what I miss the most!
ReplyDeleteWowzers, that gave me a D-Mama heart attack just now!!! So glad you caught it and it's good to know so we can be looking out for sleep bolusing!
ReplyDeleteI hope and pray THAT doesn't happen again!
I have to laugh. I've assigned nighttime checks to my DH, too, arguing that he can fall back asleep faster than I can. Once I'm up, I'm up.
ReplyDeleteI've just started hearing about sleep bolusing. Oy -- as if we all don't have enough to lay awake at night being afraid of!
OK, see one day before we started pumping I was thinking to myself if this would be possible!! and you just answered my question...sleep bolusing is totally doable. NOT GOOD!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so locking the pump at night. My kids do a lot of funny things at night and sleep bolusing is not going to be one of them!!
Thanks for sharing!
Holy Crap! That IS a new one! Thank God Sweets isn't able to do that! And... um.... I sleep with her. Not that I'd notice if she WAS sleep bolusing. I, too, sleep like the dead when I get the chance. Good Grief. Like we need one more thing to stress about..... Faith. We just gotta keep the faith.
ReplyDeleteHOLY CRAP! SLEEP BOLUSING???
ReplyDeletehope you were able to get back to sleep after that adrenaline surge! we already lock L's pump overnight due to being paranoid she would roll over and, i dunno, crush the pump and hit some random button order, thereby accidentally bolusing. either way, SKEERY!
wow...wow...I am in shock right now. Sleep bolusing??? Never even crossed my mind that this is something we would need to worry about with a pump. That is so scary!!! Thank goodness all is ok and you were there.
ReplyDeleteHoly crap, that IS a mean curveball. I wish I had some profound and great advice to give you - but as far as know I haven't ever sleep bolused. (Of course, I've been pumping for less than three years, so never say never - I just might some day.) At least it's good to know you CAN start locking his pump if you need to.
ReplyDelete"sleep bolusing"....just learned something new. Wow..thank God you were there...
ReplyDeleteI love reading your blog....I thank God for learning something new...even if it a curve ball!