When I wake up in the morning I can barely walk. My feet scream as soon as they hit the floor.
I’m pretty sure it is all the worry I keep there.
It seems this time of year my worry increases tenfold, and honestly, where do you think I should keep all this worry? In my swelly brain? NO WAY! I stuff it down…way way down to my toes.
I’m like a trash compacter when it comes to worry. My body fills with the worry garbage and I push the button and there you go! Feet stuffed with compacted worry! Stuffed so deeply that my feet ache from carrying around the worry garbage that no doubt is the weight of cement blocks.
Or it could be I need to stop wearing flip flops…
But I’m pretty sure it’s the worry.
No kidding, sometimes I am folding laundry during the day and I the thought pops into my head that I have 3 diabetic boys running around school and I have NO IDEA what their blood sugars are. I feel a pang of panic, but before it gets too bad I stuff it down.
Part of my Jedi D Mom training no doubt…
I’ve become a pro at stuffing it down. Seriously, I amaze myself.
I think to myself, “Self, you should be flipping out right now…kudos to you for pretending like everything is A Okay!”
Maybe it’s a conceited thing to do, but acknowledging the fact that I’m keeping calm and not freaking out is part of my coping mechanism. I let the worry flutter, and then I stuff it, and then I pat myself on the back and move on.
It takes practice, but in time, all D Moms and Dads can do it. You are probably doing it right now and don’t even know it! Come on, don’t your feet hurt just a little?
Problem with my trash compactor system is eventually the worry trash gets so full it fills my entire body and hits the brain. The only way to get rid of it then is to cry. Fortunately I can keep the mountains of garbage at bay with my blogging…so the crying is kept to a minimum.
I know my feet will lighten up soon…but right now if feels like someone is opening up my head and throwing worry in there like it’s an In and Out Burger Trash can. I’m stuffing as we speak people.
In the mean time to keep my mind off things, I’m coming up with some movie ideas…trying to get this beauty off the ground…
I always thought I was a good stuffer but that was before D and now I am having to learn the art of stuffing in a whole new way. I need that Jedi training you mentioned, maybe it would help.
ReplyDeleteYou my friend always have a way of posting what is so relevant in my heart. Love you!
My feet hurt! I thought it was from slogging around in rain boots for 2 days, but I think you may be onto something. They haven't hurt all summer - until the week before school starts.
ReplyDeleteOh Meri-
ReplyDeleteThe load your feet carry is amazing. And heavy. It's no wonder your feet hurt! I hope you can spread some of that weight around to all of us and lighten your load. Thanks for sharing with all of us. Love you.
No wonder my feet hurt - I never knew!
ReplyDelete"They shall know a D-Mom by her feet" is all I keep thinking!!!!
OH NO! It JUST CAN'T be the flip flops. That's all I have to wear :)
ReplyDeleteI think I push all my worry into my butt. That's why it is so big :p
Love your little photo BTW.
I LOVE THE PHOTO!!! TOO FUNNY!
ReplyDeleteYep I stuff the worry...and then sweat it out. My best decompressing worry time is either blogging or ... YEP you guessed it! EXERCISE....with a hint of wine thrown in for good measure. Now wine while exercising... maybe while blogging - lol. That may be part of my blogging problem.
Ahhh that was supposed to be NO wine while exercising - OOPS
ReplyDeleteYour blog always distracts me from my worries! Thanks for today's laugh! Funny picture! :)
ReplyDeleteRight there with ya, I have always been a stuffer too. We stuffer's have to stick together you know! :)
ReplyDeleteOh, it's definitely not the flip-flops! Those things are pure genius! My feet hurt too! Must be the same stuffing issue here. Meri, you could totally lead an on-line training course in Jedi d-mom strategies! You'd be awesome at it and we could all learn from your wisdom!
ReplyDeleteBig, big hugs!
You just solved a mystery that's been worrying me for over a year! I guess I'll call and cancel that appt I had with my podiatrist tomorrow! I'll let him know it was just all the worry that has been causing my foot pain! :)
ReplyDeleteLove you Meri!!
I hadn't seen a post from you for a couple days.
ReplyDeleteI was worried.
But now I'm all better :)
My feet hurt though. Dang.
Meri, you should give yourself a pat on the back. And thank you for sharing, I can always relate to your posts.
ReplyDeleteps. My Feet are very sore this week!
pps. Love the penguins!
My feet hurt too - I never thought it was the worry.
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