Oh hi.
I’m Meri.
Sometimes I write things and I’m sure they are brilliant and
then a couple days later I wonder if I blew the entire post out of my…
Anyway.
When I wrote “Sitting with diabetes,” I meant it. I’m at peace with the fact that diabetes has
come into our lives. We can’t turn back
time, (unless someone’s figured that out, because I have a house, a car and 3
pumps to pawn so as to get on board with that one,) we can’t make it go away,
(unless we pretend…which I’m SUPER good at BTW,) and we can’t control something
we have no control over.
Diabetes is here.
Diabetes on board. We
might as well have yellow caution signs in our car windows with little suction
cups. Because it’s our reality.
But here’s the thing.
Even though I accept this lot in life, it doesn’t mean I don’t have times
when I’m really overwhelmed, or really angry.
I have my moments.
For example, I don’t know…last weekend? I had “a moment” that lasted a good four
days. And after so many years I can tell
you, that is normal. (I used the other N
word. This one's ok. Also, I realize I’m the Jekyll and Hyde of
the blogosphere. That’s ok too. Having three boys with T1 does that to a person.)
So to be clear, my feelings about Diabetes runs the gamut on
any given day. And from what I see in
other groups that house parents of children with diabetes, and even people with
diabetes themselves, this is par for the course.
So why do we feel so safe attacking others for how they feel
online?
EW! ME!! PICK ME!!!
I KNOW! I KNOW!
There are many reasons:
1. We don’t know
these people in real life.
2. It is in most
cases impossible to discern inflection when reading the written word.
3. Cultural
differences don’t help in interpreting intent.
Some cultures speak softer than others, while others say things straight
from the hip.
4. We don’t like the
way something was worded and take it as a personal attack on ourselves, others,
and our entire community.
5. We don’t
agree. And we are right. And they are going to know we are right.
6. We’ve let similar
statuses fly under the radar, but this one…this one is the last straw!
7. We don’t realize
the person on the other end of the status is a real person, who obviously is in
need of human connection, understanding and/or validation.
I don’t care what you tell yourself, everyone has
feelings. Even people who seem strong
and self assured, have feelings. There
is vulnerability in all of us. Being
gentle is always the best answer.
Not everyone is good at writing out his or her
feelings. If someone writes, “Diabetes
is no big deal! Look at how bad it could
be!” Instead of attacking them for
obviously not having ANY idea how dangerous and how hard this disease is…maybe
we should say, “I’m so glad you are enjoying this place where diabetes is
playing nice!” Or maybe, “I hope I feel
that way some day.” (As some people commented on my "Sitting with Diabetes" post. I have really nice, tactful friends.)
Jumping to the worst conclusions never helped anything. Attacking another family for their really
good, or really bad day never helped anything either. We have to remember that these families are
living the same Diabetic Life we are.
They are going through phases of grief, phases of acceptance, and phases
of victories and defeat. The ups and
downs are the thread that holds us together.
The ups and downs are why we sought to connect with “others” online in
the first place.
This world/Internet needs more love and supportiveness.
Leave judgment, and rudeness to the outsiders.
And if a discussion must take place, if someone has crossed
the line. We should take it to a private
place…that’s what private chat boxes are for.
And we should try to use gentle language. If we speak from the heart and try not to talk about what “they did” but
rather how it made us feel, the entire tone of the conversation will change.
Attacking someone and judging him or her will only lead to
defensiveness. And in my slight 40 year
existence I have learned there is nothing that can be accomplished when someone
gets on the defensive.
I’m not a therapist.
I don’t know everything, and I don’t pretend to have all the answers,
but I see the destructive conversations happening left and right, all of which can be softened with an increased measure of empathy and forgiveness.
A wise someone once said, “You reap what you sow.”
A little kindness makes all the difference. I’ve seen my life change because of it.
Just because you know me, and my story, you give kindness to
me freely. I believe if we knew these
people who bug us, and their story, we’d be inclined to treat them a little
differently too.
That’s what I think anyway.
It’s ok if you don’t agree with me.
But if that’s the case, be gentle, ok?
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Perfect! and perfectly stated. I agree with you but must admit to past transgressions. Keep writing, you are helping the world be a better place and each of us individually to be better inhabitants of this lovely planet
ReplyDeleteI agree with you.
ReplyDeleteYes!
ReplyDeleteThough it's sad that this had to be said, you did a beautiful job saying it. Thank you for sharing your story with us Meri.
ReplyDeleteYou are one of the people I admire the most when it comes to dealing with diabetes. And I trust you to be gentle and loving where many people find it difficult. ♡
ReplyDeleteWow, Meri!! Every time I think you've written your best post yet, you manage to out do yourself!! This is a great post. As I've said multiple times, I really wish we could know each other in real life. I am hopeful that some day, some how we can meet. We have birthdays with in nine days of each other and I think it would be really cool to celebrate together some year, just like I do with my friend Betsy who's B-day is 1/18. We call January "our month". It's your month too! Sorry- I got side tracked!!!
ReplyDeleteAnyway- I'm aware that everybody has feelings. I sometimes wish my own were not so volatile, but I believe God made me the way He did for a reason and I manage my emotions as well as I can on any given day. I try to hide my emotions form others because I feel like no one understands and also I don't want them to feel bad for me!!! Sometimes I am more successful with this than others. Case in point- Debbie's death (which I have little doubt that diabetes had a hand in, although many other factors including smoking, stress and possibly alcohol use also played a part) was a HUGE shock and left a tremendous void in my life. For a while I was just a weepy mess. I had almost no ability to control my tears, although I did not beak down and sob in front of anyone!!!
Meri- I have come to love you for the person you are. You do such a great job expressing your feelings. This is therapeutic for me as well. I promise to always do my best to be gentle. I would never intentionally hurt your feelings!!! Just like every other human being I'm not perfect. in real life things do come out of my mouth that are hurtful to others. I always regret such comments and do my best to apologize and repair the damage if possible. Thanks for writing this, Meri!! I love this blog. Hope you are having a good day today. HUGS 4 U, Meri. Tracy
Meri, all of your points are very good, especially 1, 2, and 3. As this community gets bigger, it will become more diverse, which means there may be more disagreeable comments here and there. Hopefully, I won't be the source of them. I totally agree with the idea that support should be shared universally, and criticism should be shared privately. Wow... how long ago was d-blog check in day?
ReplyDeleteI do not agree!!!! This is awful!!!! I can not believe you put this out there!!!!!! <-- I shoulda wrote that in all CAPS, but I am too lazy to fix it. I am totally kidding, BTW!!! I love you Meri. Awesome post as usual, but I'm feeling like I missed something *nothing new*. If so, I hope the armies have cooled down and everything is all peace-love-and-glitter again.
ReplyDeleteYou are absolutely right! The hardest thing I find to do is just "walk away" when someone says that diabetes is a "little bump in life, and I will get over it." It seems those sort of comments dig deep inside, the sort that fester until you have no emotional strength left to do anything. But you are definitely right, getting upset or responding in anger won't solve anything . . . I just have to learn to walk away. :)
ReplyDeleteAmen & you said it sister!
ReplyDeleteFabulous. So true, so true. Thanks for saying it.
DeleteWhatever would I do not having you? I simply can't imagine.
ReplyDeleteThank you Meri. I feel like you should accept medical insurance payments for all the perspective and advice you give me.